wanderlust

I love my job. Of course not everything is perfect, but I really love what I do. There are just some nights like tonight that my heart gets to wandering & I have this unexplainable desire to set out on that next adventure. If I could get up & head out of the country for the weekend I'd do it in a heartbeat. I'd take a road trip somewhere I've never been..& hopefully come back with some good stories. Coming home every night having the same routine is not easy. I don't even have a set schedule really. Where do I have room to complain? 

God knows my heart..and who knows, maybe He put this desire in me to be of use someday. As early back as I can remember I've sought out & daydreamed of adventure..something life changing. Changing someone elses' life.

Maybe I'll get the chance someday to live out some of these dreams, or maybe He'll change me & my heart will land somewhere permanently. 

Crash lived up to it's name tonight

I'm glad that God cares about my heart. But really, I can be pretty stubborn when I don't want to confront something in my life..& low & behold Crash has been talking about some things these past few weeks in the series that I don't want to even THINK about. My response? Gee, thanks God. I definatly needed that reminder. (sarcasm mind you) But I really did need it.

I won't go into more detail, but all in all I'm excited & cringing a little about the journey He has me on right now

an odd turn of events

Lately, things have been kind of unbalanced in my life. Let me explain.

I've been trying to get along yet again, on my own. I've been working, & working, & working some more. I've been irritated with all the small, unimportant things. I've been forgetting the real stuff. The God stuff. The meaning to my life. The reason we're here at all.

This last month has been as hectic & crazy as I thought it was going to be, plus some. But I'm finding myself on my knees more often. My attitude is changing. I still get angry, frustrated etc. But it doesn't last, & the feeling of gratitude & peace come instead. For all the things I can let bother me in a day I have so much I can be thankful for. The fact that I'm feeling thankful for a crappy situation in work or life, is definatly not by my doing & I'm so glad that their is something better in me, changing me, and loving my troublesome soul.

I love my family so much. Truly blessed. I have had some amazing people come into my life these last few years. Truly blessed. Friendships that have lasted the years. Truly blessed. Opportunities to serve. Truly blessed.

 \Thanks God, seriously. I couldn't do this life without You!!