Violet's are Blue

So,

I'm moving back home.

YUP.

Now, this may not seem like a big deal..I'm in my 20s, still going to school, it's pretty normal right? To anyone else it is, however to me, personally; it's a story that's been untold.

I feel a little bit like a failure. I let myself down in a way, I was supposed to pay off loans this year, save up some money. I had an opportunity open up to work in a salon which ended up not being the opportunity that I was promised. It ended up costing me money that I didn't have, & in return not making enough to even pay my own bills. I had a chance to take a photography job at the beginning of the year, which would have payed me to travel all over the world to take pictures. Instead, I chose to get experience in a salon to further my career. I said goodbye to a lot of close friends this year, & ended up staying in Lynchburg when it has been one of my greatest desires to leave. So, I guess you can say this year has been a bit challenging.

I've been dwelling on this for a while now & trying not to be down & blue...really just questioning all of my decisions that I've made. Was all of this really the right choice? Am I where I'm supposed to be? Where am I going?

In all of this, I come back to one solid answer; I have been selfish. It's true. If I had taken that job and not been in Lynchburg all year, I would have missed out on getting to serve at my church & meet some amazing people. I would have missed out on being there for a huge moment in my friends' life, & I would have deeply regretted that. I have gained so much salon knowledge, & good customer service? I can do that in my sleep. I was able to get my puppy Aria who drives me absolutely crazy! But I love her to pieces & wouldn't trade her for anything.

God & I have been up and down this year, but are finishing strong. Serving has been such a big part of our relationship lately & it's a good thing because it's what I need to be doing especially right now to get my mind off of my own issues. I've been praying especially lately asking Him what I need to be doing this next year; do I keep going with cosmetology or go full force into my art? My answer for now is pretty loud & clear, SERVE.

And so that, ladies & gents, is just what I'm going to do.